June seemed to escape me and July was a complete blur. On Monday of this week I was ready to wave the flag and surrender. I even went as far to pull out the teacher-resignation form and see just how permanent that decision actually was.
Lately Â I say to my husband or my friend, Brittany, this exact line, â€œI cannot do this anymore. This life is not sustainable long termâ€. Every. Single. Day. Well, I think I am actually sick of hearing myself say it so I decided August would be different. Scratch that, I have not decided- itâ€™s actually not an option- I am on a hell-bent mission for some sort of normalcy.Â I have allowed myself to come up with every excuse in the book as to why I cannot do something vs. why I can.Â I find myself creating lists that cannot be achieved which result in a spiral of overwhelming anxiety and then I utter the typical daily phrase. This type of behavior is neither helpful nor productive. So, the mission begins..
I am determined to make August a better month and savor the final weeks of summer.Â No more excuses. I have come to a few realizations this week and they have helped to spearhead my quest:
–Itâ€™s ok to be small.Â Libby Lane Press is a small paper and design company. Not an empire. It doesnâ€™t mean you have not succeeded.
–Say No. I promise that someone else out there will say yes to that project. Saying No to one thing means saying Yes to another. In my case, this means saying no to work that is not aligned with my goals, and saying yes to building my niche- slow and steady.
–Setting Boundaries. No I cannot help everyone, I cannot design something â€œreal quickâ€ and I cannot reply to your email at the drop of a hat. This behavior has led me to where I am now and I say no more. I am a dedicated designer that has a tenacious spirit to succeed but I refuse to continue on this path while life is passing me by.
–PLAN. I need to be a better planner. I once read on Emily Leyâ€™s blog: Â â€œFailing to plan is just like planning to failâ€ and it couldnâ€™t be truer.Â I know myself and I do not have an easy breezy bone in my body so I need that structure and routine like a fish needs water. Therefore, no more complaining about not having time to plan. Sit down and do it already. I will thank myself later.
So, I am taking August by the horns and making changes that may not make sense to everyone else, but itâ€™s time to reset, refocus and refresh. Are you ready?